The lone wolf entrepreneur is out there, more than you think

All of this brought me back to my childhood, and reminded me that when my mother's car broke down, my father would always come and get her. I thought to myself, if my car broke down, who would I call? I realised that I would have no-one to call other than Mercedes Roadside Assistance - then reality struck. I am alone.

I live in this big city, full of friends, and lots of great adventures but basically I am alone and independent by choice and also by force.

My life, it appears, is work, then the odd holiday, and very little in-between, through no fault of anyone else's but my own.

I live in this quiet world, where I do my thing, then I go off and do things with others.

At work, I am completely and utterly in control. Not by choice, but by position and as much as I empower people to make decisions and run a flat organisational structure, it is irrelevant. Everything stops with me, from whether a client is happy, or if a staff member is getting the most out of their jobs.

I am responsible for finances even though we have two very capable in-house accountants, who run the show. I am responsible for sales even though I don't actively take part in this role, but I am absolutely responsible in ensuring that there is enough sales to run a profitable company going forward that pays the wages of the employees we have. I am responsible for innovation and creation of new opportunities and 100% responsible at the end of the day for the brand and the value is holds.

When you look at it like this, it's daunting. It's scary. I'm afraid that I will fail and if I fail, it affects others. I often take my eye off the ball, and with the premise that I run a flat organisational structure that in affect should run itself, I try to convince myself that that is actually ok.

It's not. I am responsible and at the end of day, only I am responsible for the success and wellbeing of the company and its future. 

I can be as inclusive as I want with all the team, but they don't have to worry about paying the bills, or the integrity of the brand and all that it encompasses. It really does stop with me.

Being a lone wolf is not glamorous, fun, or courageous. I sit here with a clear head, ready to tackle my day and I realise that being a "lone wolf" has no advantages at all, yet the other option of having partners to share the workload, also isn't always a good option, but for the few that are able to make this work, it can be an incredible partnership.

So, what do you do? Do you seek to find someone to share your business with knowing that you have a 50/50 chance of success or is there another solution? What do you think?